Its been a full month already!!!!! Where exactly has the time gone???? It feels like yesterday, cleaning the house the night before the surgery crying because im scared I wont make it through. Now here I am still alittle emotional but Im working on that and 14 kilos lighter.

Yup Ive lost 14 kgs in 4 weeks and love the way I look & all the compliments im receiving and Im a size 16!

These are the foods I can have during the pureed stage , now I know your going to think “ohh ok thats not too bad, theres a few different foods to follow and enjoy” …thats what I had thought when my dietitian gave me this list, but I was wrong.

Lets say I had Casserole of meat, vegies & stock for dinner, throw them into the blender and out comes a disgusting looking brown / orange thick soup or “blop” my kids call it. Not to mention my dietitian wants me to have about 50 – 10 grams of meat in my one meal – I can barely fit 4 TEAspoons of the “blop” let alone achieve the 50 – 100 grams of meat.

I have to blend cottage cheese, fruit, or mayo tuna and end up having a milky or juicy drink instead of a meal to EAT.

I havent thrown up as yet which is a huge relief but because im not having enough or any fibre im not going to the loo, so have started metamucil which is another thing im having problems with.

I cant gulp my water / drinks, not only will it be to painful going down but have been told it will cause me to vomit. So im sipping, sippping and sipping, so while im trying to successfully sip my full cup of metamucil come the time Im almost finished, my metamucil becomes thick and yucky.

Unfortunately im still on this annoying liquid diet for another week but on the plus side I’ve lost 10kilos – wowwwwww.

The liquid diet is to give time for your stomach & staples to heal while giving you time to recognise your bodys ‘full’ messages.

Ive been asked if im ever hungry, I still feel the hunger pangs when its time to eat but after a few spoons im full and physically cant have anymore.

Went out for lunch/coffee yesterday, I had the inside of 4 wedges and 1/2 a cup of mocha and was full – I did want to eat all the food on the table but I wasnt ‘tempted’ to touch them. Dont know if its because I was so full or because im starting to change my eating patterns.

Yesterday, I was out so didnt get to have as much water as I should, and this affected the colour of my pee – another thing I have to be more aware of. My surgeon said if my body is dehydrated now im more likely to have problems with gallstones and the worse headaches.

Im feeling more attracted especially when I take the time to do my hair & makeup – hubby even noticed……!

I had my wound dressing removed, the gp said the cuts have closed but now Im feeling the slightest discomfort, but thats only when I wear pants.

Heres what one cut looks like, im using Bio oil & have high hopes that maybe there wont be any or much scar left. I have been alittle embarrassed to dress next to hubby, but according to him if it were for the slight discolour you cant even tell. I think im paranoid because I can feel the bump when I touch them.

My taste buds have changed as well, I finally had my first coffee in a month and this Moccona just does not taste the same, I use to love the taste and have atleast 4 a day.

I have so much more energy this week, im not falling asleep on the couch, I dont have the need for a nanny nap, im starting to sort of play outdoors with the kids and this is not only because im 10kgs lighter but I believe its all the protein im having.

Heres what im having every day

Breakfast: 200ml optishake made from milk & ice

Snack: white tea with sugar

Lunch: 100ml yoghurt or Opti soup or opti shake

Snack : white tea with sugar

Dinner: Soup or puree dinner with extra water to make it into a soup about 100ml

Dessert: Jelly or custard or icecream

2 x 600mls bottle of water.

Im also asked if I recommend this surgery to others, if you’ve been battling dieting, body image, OBESITY all your life then without a doubt go for it, the past 13 days of discomfort is worth it, jumping on the scales is easier now, im receiving compliments without seeking it even my kids are noticing the clothes im wearing make me look ‘skinny’.

I’ve been indoors for 4 days now and today is going to be a good day.

I’m eating full fluid meals, passing wind and have opened my bowels

I had a quick rinse under the shower but didn’t wash my hair, I really miss home, family and my heater.

Finally my dr came in and has given me the go ahead to leave. I have to have 2-3 proteins drinks a day plus other liquid meals I can tolerate. This is the list given to me

I’m alittle worried about overeating at home, vomiting is something I have to avoid. I’ve picked up my prescription including the suppositories – yeahhhh!!!!

Had a good night sleep tonight, woke up every 2 hours and didn’t need to do any night walks.

I was given 200mls of blue liquid to drink, this was to ensure there’s no leaks and no blue ink running through the drain.

Its not much but it took me 3 hours to drink 100mls of the blue liquid. It’s amazing I’m not hungry or craving but i was sure id throw up if i had another sip of the blue drink.

Mind you the blue drink didn’t have any smell or taste. Luckily I passed the drain test and now they will be in to remove it.

OMG I have never felt anything like a drain being removed from my body. I took a deep breath in but that breath didn’t last me, they were 1/2 way from pulling the drain out and I coluldnt handle taking another breath in .

I could have sworn they were pulling my lung out and I was bleeding to death.

Fortunately my lungs were left intact and not a single drop of blood came out. I was uncomfortable for about an hour, I couldn’t walk because the stitch feeling was stronger but towards dinner time I was fine.

I’m more mobile now without the drain, I can feel my stitches more but nothing panadol isn’t treating and I’m ready for my ice-cream & pumpkin soup dinner.

I had the worse sleep last night, I was awake every hour trying to pass wind.

During the operation the stomach is pumped with air to see if there’s any leak, once in recovery we have to pass this air out as either heartburn burps or wind.

Once I had the pleasure of passing heaps of wind (tmi???) I was given 30mls of water to see if my body accepts and once the staff were happy I increased it to 60mls.

The lady in the other room started vomiting blood & fluid so she was put back to no fluid via mouth.

Im always walking, even if it’s one lap in the corridor it was enough to get some of the gas going.

Today I was given another pleasure of meeting my 6am & 6pm friend the suppositories for pain relief.

I was given clear fluid diet of tea, jelly and broth. I was satisfied with just my 1/2 of jelly.

I’m still a little tired and walking too fast or alot does get me tired and give me a stitch

I finally saw my kids today and it was painfully emotional. Crying hurt my stitches but I was overwhelmed with emotion.

The kids were more fascinated about being in a hospital then mummy being attached to a drip machine and drain lol

It’s time for bed the lights are out and it’s only 8.

My gastric sleeve was booked in at 8am, at 7am they took me in for pre-administration.

I dressed into the sexy SIDE buttoned gown and tight elastic socks to prevent blood clots and into the theater I went.

I’m sure I mentioned it I was scared shitless of being put to sleep, the thought of my unconscious body being surrounded by unfamiliar faces and also the thought of dying on the table scared me.

Honestly, it wasnt that dramatic, the anesthetist attached the needle onto my arm and while he was measuring my position on the bed he told me was going to give a little medication to “calm my nerves”before he put me on the gas – I was knocked out then and there

Today, Im in/out of sleep, its like im watching the room from tv and I can see my arms / body/ people around me but I cant connect with anyone or thing. Im feeling really groggy and sleepy.

I didnt want hubby or the kids to come in either. I didn’t want the kids to see the drain that contains stomach fluid and blood.

no fluid or water by mouth

I couldn’t do a pee til 6pm but I was assured it was normal as I still had the effects of anaesthetic in my body

Surgery is Friday THIS week, that feels so good saying ‘this week’ and not two or three weeks.

My first week on the very low calorie & carb diet was great, I had all the symptoms including bad breath, smelly pee, frequent peeing and Ketosis but unfortunately before I could lose any kgs I had a birthday to attended on the weekend….there goes that week!

Its amazing since the diet I havent craved food or had an emotional eating urge. This week I was back on but then hubby decided to celebrate my birthday early so off to a seafood buffet cruise I go.

Yesterday was a beautiful spring Sunday and yep you guessed it we went to a picnic bbq but I must say I didnt eat much, I just didnt feel like attacking the food.

Today is a new day, coffee with friends isnt going to ruin it – im well prepared!!!!!

I have lost 2kgs despite a rocky fortnight!